Wow, in 9 days, it'd have been a full year since I last updated my vox. If I think about it, a lot of things have changed since then. My love life, my music tastes, my jobs, my personality, my friends, and possibly my appearance have changed at least just a little bit since then.
Since I last updated my vox, I was heartbroken (lol again), engaged to somebody, fallen out of love, and started a friends with benefits. Not that you guys ever need to know about that. But, you know, its quite astonishing how it feels like nothing has changed yet.. everything has. Everything. Perspectives, life experiences, they're all different right now.
I think for the most part I'm happy now. I've been so unhappy so much this past year. So I'm just glad I'm finally happy and okay with everything in my life. Thats all that counts, right?
And to know I will be continuing to change and grow as the next year
rolls by is a great feeling. I hope when I look back in a year from now
I have more things to compare between how much I've grown up and
matured, since I'll behitting my big Two Oh. Mrr.. 20~. I'll probably
still feel like the runt of the family, too. Lol. Oh well. I can never
be old enough. :x
Anyway, I'm glad I'm not engaged anymore. That was a nightmare.
And.. I have to get ready for work now. So maybe I'll update this more.. I don't really know. Hopefully I'll do it before a year goes by. Its kind of sad that I've neglected this journal/blog thing for that long, lol.
Looking forward to Harry Potter 7. And Guitar Hero 80's. And Dethalbum. And Metalocolypse. Yay!
So.. a few nights ago I got a phonecall from my ex boyfriend, Chris. We had only broken up recently, y'see. So I was a bit surprised by this. The first thing he tells me is that he's been kicked out of his house. In a state of panic and worry I pulled on my jeans and ran outside with nothing but my cell in hand begging him to tell me where he was. At first he was being highly difficult and I wandered around for a little while until I saw a figure walk behind a set of buildings across the street from me. Not caring for my safety, I ran after it, and discovered Chris behind a set of bushes next to a church. After failed attempts at getting me to leave and go home he showed me around his little hideout. He had a small bag with him (dresser) and he pointed to the parking lot explaining that it was his padio.
We sat down and spoke to eachother for the first time in a week on this so called 'padio' of his. We didn't get really into it, but I could tell he was trying his best not to cry. I felt really bad.. and at that moment I knew I would have to do all I could to help him back on his feet again. It was a very odd feeling to have.. I mean, at the moment, shouldn't I have been upset with him? And here I was basically pulling him into my arms telling him everything would be alright. That I was there for him. He wasn't really there for me, but that was okay. At the moment all I cared about was making sure he was alright.
We spent a while joking around. Chris said that he had a weapon with him and he wasn't afraid to use it on me to get me to go home. I called his bluff and he admitted to only having a stick of deoderant. Which he tried to threaten me with, anyway. Lol. He also insulted God while randomly yelling out "FUCK YOU" into the air. He realized this by noticing the picture of Jesus on the wall across the parking lot. He tried many times and ways to try and get me to go home but unfortunately for him I'm stubborn as a mule. I wasn't going anywhere!
After several hours we decided to walk around. We found ourselves sitting outside of Winn-Dixie. Our usual place. We decided to hang out there until 6 AM to grab some breakfast. We did a bit more talking and restablishing our relationship.. even though to me it still isn't very clear. Once the store opened and we freaked out the employees we grabbed some bagels and cream cheese and brought them back to my place. After nibbling on the food I got him to take a nap in my room. Later on my mom said he could stay over after I explained to her what had happened. So off to work we went~. With little sleep and having the closing shift. We walked home together that night and I fell asleep in his arms. *__*
What's one thing that you hope to do or accomplish before the end of this year?
Jeez, whats something I DON'T want to accomplish by the end of this year? I really want to be able to drive. I also hope I have my GED by then as well, even though that's kind of pushing it if I even get either or done by December. Sigh. ;~;
Although I can't say I'm not trying! This is pretty much the list of things in order that I have to do:
- Get state I.D. (It's on it's way in the mail right now~.)
- Get copy of SS card.
- Get new bank card.
- Get 2nd (or new) job that pays more.
- Save up money.
- Work on driving skills.
- Sign up for GED classes.
- Take driving test.
- Take GED.
YAY. Once I'm done with that I'll look into colleges and expanding my job search. Once I can legally drive I'll be looking into appartments and whatnot. Hopefully I'll have someone to move in with because I'm deathly afraid of living on my own. But yanno. This is far ahead of the time schedule. I'm not even sure I can get all of this done by the end of this year. XD
I have a Vox account.... aaaand.. I'm posting.. about.. it. I guess.
I WANT A GLASS OF OJ. I DEMAND OJ RIGHT NOW. >O
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